Fidelity

I wonder what you would say

If you saw her too today

Was she beautiful, was she funny, was she fine

Does she make you laugh, does she, like me, harbor the divine

Does she know you hate the mornings

Will she care when you are sick

Will she care when you are mourning

Does she smile when you are happy

Does she envy those who make you smile

Will she keep loving you

Even if you are gone for a while

Does she know you like your food

Cold

And without the spice

Does she know

That you need to be alone

Or love your family

Or hate tomatoes

Will she read your writing

And tell you the truth

Does she know your pain

Your malformed left big toe

Your insecurity about your nose

Your childhood friend

Who gave you your first woe

Does she make you happy

Has she seen you grow

Through high school

College

Learning the things we learn

Has she seen you bored

Has she seen you burn

Do you make her happy

Make her feel

Like she’s the only one

Can you protect her heart

From the desires of the dark

And give wings to her dreams

Without taking their voice

Can you give her what she deserves

Do you see her for what she is

Or do you see her as a whore

Does she complement you

Or will she kill you

Slowly

With love

Like the sugar

That makes ripe fruit

Rot

Do you see each other as you are

Or as ideals of what you want

Will she love you till the end

Will she love you until the end

Will you still be loving her then

I’d say to you she is nothing

Nothing to me

None of the above

But I think of her just as I thought of you

When we had just first met

When you said hello to me

My eyes smiling

At prospect of what could be